Though I cannot stand the way my forehead wrinkles, I like the angle that this picture was taken at. The lighting of the picture also looks just perfect.
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
A Night in the Wild
Boredom. The same feeling as always.
I can't believe he's just sitting there playing video games.
Well, what would I expect? He's only a guy after all. But... whatever...
Maybe I'll surprise him instead.
I can feel his eyes watching me as I cross the room.
"What are you doing?", he says.
"Oh, nothing", I reply.
Okay, so a small lie won't hurt. He'll know what I was doing soon enough anyway.
I walk over to the chest of drawers and pull out a small locket I stole from a store some time ago.
"Here."
I hand him the locket and watch as he opens it.
There's a small roach from a joint we had smoked and saved from whenever ago.
"Thank you baby!". He blows a kiss towards me with a smile on his face.
Ah, I'm glad he liked it! I was hoping he would and not get mad at me like he did before when he found out I had hid something from him.
Though it's not like I had stolen it, I was saving it for us.
He had jumped to conclusions at the time.
But that's in the past now. We've gotten over it since then, right?
"So, do you want to smoke it now?", he asks as he procures the only smoking apparatus we have.
"Sure."
I was also hoping he'd say that, too.
We proceed to smoke and get high.
"So what do you want to do when we're done with this?", he asks as he hands me the bowl.
"We can go for a walk or ride our bikes- something like that. Maybe we can go back to the railroad tracks or walk even further, if you'd like", I respond.
Just the other day we had gone for a walk down the nearby railroad tracks. We were just curious to see where it led to.
"Okay. But first, take these." He hands me two and a half white pills.
I take them with water and stay my questions. I have learned to put my absolute and complete trust in this man. Well, he earned it to say the least.
I watch as he takes the same white pills, except they had a higher dosage than the ones he gave me.
"Are you ready?"
"Hold on, we are going to need these, too."
I gather up four hefty markers. "Just for some fun, you know? A little anarchy for tonight...
Well, come on. It's only getting darker and colder the more we wait."
We begin our walk. First out of the driveway, make a left down the road, a right down the other, and a left once more until we hit the railroad tracks. It's gotten quite dark now- so dark we had to use our cell phones as light for the sun had forsaken us.
This is the spot we were at before. It seems creepy now that it's nighttime.
"Hey, I"m kind of scared", I say as I huddle closer to his warm body.
"Well come closer; I'll keep you safe, baby."
"Thanks."
"Here, hold on for a minute. I've got something to show you."
He pulls out a spray can of AXE and a lighter. "Watch this!"
"Be careful!", I warn him.
"Okay, I will."
He proceeds to spray a heart on a nearby concrete wall and light it on fire.
I watch in awe as the blue flame licks the wall in the shape of a heart.
"It's wonderful, baby!"
"Good. I'm glad."
I look down at my cell phone to look at the time but only to realize, hey!- it's our ten month anniversary today.
I wonder if he knows, too.
"So guess what today is?", I ask.
"The 26th, right? Is it a holiday or something?"
Okay, so he doesn't know yet.
"It's February 26th."
".....so ....."
"Our ten month anniversary?"
"Oh shit! I'm sorry I didn't realize. Please don't be mad at me, I didn't mean that in a bad way. I'm sorry baby!".
"It's okay. I just realized it too."
We have this habit of realizing it's our anniversary only on the day of.
It seems like we've been together for so long already that we've forgetten to keep up with our anniversaries anymore. But I don't find anything bad by it. I find it quite funny, actually.
I can feel the white pills begin to work. Though it's not like a huge feeling, I feel relaxed.
"Can you hand me the black and red markers you brought? I want to draw something."
"Sure, here you go." I hand him the two markers and keep the latter. I decide to begin drawing as well.
Hmm. What should I draw? Or maybe I should just write something.
Curiously, I ask, "What are you drawing?
"You can't see it yet, it's a surprise!"
Okay, so he won't tell me. I bet it has something to do with our anniversary, or just with us.
Well, at least he has something in mind. I still feel lost.
Oh, I know!
HybridAssassination
-"Are you LIVING, or are you just alive?
Perfect!
"Are you almost done?", I inquire as I become impatient.
"Almost, give me a few more minutes."
So I just start walking around in circles, trying to entertain myself as best as I could at night in the cold. And then it hit me. I had to use the bathroom.
Now, this is no laughing matter for me. When I have to go- I HAVE TO GO, NOW!
"Hey baby?"
"Yeah?"
"I have to pee."
"Well then go pee!"
"But where? And what am I supposed to wipe with?"
We both look around for an adequate spot or something I could use to wipe with.
"Well, I have underwear that I could use. It's not the best but it'd work, I'm sure.
Come with me, I don't want to be alone- it's dark and scary out here."
"Hold on, I'm almost done. When I finish I'll go with you."
"Okay, but hurry!"
I stare up at the sky waiting for him.
I really have to go! He's taking way to long for me.
I decide to go ahead without him.
As I begin to walk away, I can hear him following behind me.
"I told you I'd go with you. I'm not finished with my drawing but I know you have to pee so it's okay."
"Thank you."
As I take off my shoes, socks, pants and underwear I feel the cold night air against my bare legs.
I take up a spot behind one of the concrete walls and relieve myself.
Much better.
The underwear worked as it should have, but I didn't want to take it back with me.
It was dirty after all.
So I set the article of clothing on top of the concrete wall, out of sight.
"Ha! Now people can wonder about that being there."
Yeah, that's not weird at all...
"Are you almost done with your drawing now?", I ask.
"Almost."
A few minutes go by.
"Okay, I'm done. Come look!"
I walk over to the wall and gaze upon the artwork he had presented to me.
I couldn't believe my eyes!
With black, red and blue markers he had transformed the boring, gray wall into a masterpiece.
Written there was:
Happy 10 Months
Jake
2012-N-2/26
Rachel
"It's beautiful, baby! I absolutely love it!
Thank you so much baby. You did a wonderful job!"
"I'm really glad you like it!"
We stand there and stare at it for a while before we decide to continue to walk again.
I can't believe he's just sitting there playing video games.
Well, what would I expect? He's only a guy after all. But... whatever...
Maybe I'll surprise him instead.
I can feel his eyes watching me as I cross the room.
"What are you doing?", he says.
"Oh, nothing", I reply.
Okay, so a small lie won't hurt. He'll know what I was doing soon enough anyway.
I walk over to the chest of drawers and pull out a small locket I stole from a store some time ago.
"Here."
I hand him the locket and watch as he opens it.
There's a small roach from a joint we had smoked and saved from whenever ago.
"Thank you baby!". He blows a kiss towards me with a smile on his face.
Ah, I'm glad he liked it! I was hoping he would and not get mad at me like he did before when he found out I had hid something from him.
Though it's not like I had stolen it, I was saving it for us.
He had jumped to conclusions at the time.
But that's in the past now. We've gotten over it since then, right?
"So, do you want to smoke it now?", he asks as he procures the only smoking apparatus we have.
"Sure."
I was also hoping he'd say that, too.
We proceed to smoke and get high.
"So what do you want to do when we're done with this?", he asks as he hands me the bowl.
"We can go for a walk or ride our bikes- something like that. Maybe we can go back to the railroad tracks or walk even further, if you'd like", I respond.
Just the other day we had gone for a walk down the nearby railroad tracks. We were just curious to see where it led to.
"Okay. But first, take these." He hands me two and a half white pills.
I take them with water and stay my questions. I have learned to put my absolute and complete trust in this man. Well, he earned it to say the least.
I watch as he takes the same white pills, except they had a higher dosage than the ones he gave me.
"Are you ready?"
"Hold on, we are going to need these, too."
I gather up four hefty markers. "Just for some fun, you know? A little anarchy for tonight...
Well, come on. It's only getting darker and colder the more we wait."
We begin our walk. First out of the driveway, make a left down the road, a right down the other, and a left once more until we hit the railroad tracks. It's gotten quite dark now- so dark we had to use our cell phones as light for the sun had forsaken us.
This is the spot we were at before. It seems creepy now that it's nighttime.
"Hey, I"m kind of scared", I say as I huddle closer to his warm body.
"Well come closer; I'll keep you safe, baby."
"Thanks."
"Here, hold on for a minute. I've got something to show you."
He pulls out a spray can of AXE and a lighter. "Watch this!"
"Be careful!", I warn him.
"Okay, I will."
He proceeds to spray a heart on a nearby concrete wall and light it on fire.
I watch in awe as the blue flame licks the wall in the shape of a heart.
"It's wonderful, baby!"
"Good. I'm glad."
I look down at my cell phone to look at the time but only to realize, hey!- it's our ten month anniversary today.
I wonder if he knows, too.
"So guess what today is?", I ask.
"The 26th, right? Is it a holiday or something?"
Okay, so he doesn't know yet.
"It's February 26th."
".....so ....."
"Our ten month anniversary?"
"Oh shit! I'm sorry I didn't realize. Please don't be mad at me, I didn't mean that in a bad way. I'm sorry baby!".
"It's okay. I just realized it too."
We have this habit of realizing it's our anniversary only on the day of.
It seems like we've been together for so long already that we've forgetten to keep up with our anniversaries anymore. But I don't find anything bad by it. I find it quite funny, actually.
I can feel the white pills begin to work. Though it's not like a huge feeling, I feel relaxed.
"Can you hand me the black and red markers you brought? I want to draw something."
"Sure, here you go." I hand him the two markers and keep the latter. I decide to begin drawing as well.
Hmm. What should I draw? Or maybe I should just write something.
Curiously, I ask, "What are you drawing?
"You can't see it yet, it's a surprise!"
Okay, so he won't tell me. I bet it has something to do with our anniversary, or just with us.
Well, at least he has something in mind. I still feel lost.
Oh, I know!
HybridAssassination
-"Are you LIVING, or are you just alive?
Perfect!
"Are you almost done?", I inquire as I become impatient.
"Almost, give me a few more minutes."
So I just start walking around in circles, trying to entertain myself as best as I could at night in the cold. And then it hit me. I had to use the bathroom.
Now, this is no laughing matter for me. When I have to go- I HAVE TO GO, NOW!
"Hey baby?"
"Yeah?"
"I have to pee."
"Well then go pee!"
"But where? And what am I supposed to wipe with?"
We both look around for an adequate spot or something I could use to wipe with.
"Well, I have underwear that I could use. It's not the best but it'd work, I'm sure.
Come with me, I don't want to be alone- it's dark and scary out here."
"Hold on, I'm almost done. When I finish I'll go with you."
"Okay, but hurry!"
I stare up at the sky waiting for him.
I really have to go! He's taking way to long for me.
I decide to go ahead without him.
As I begin to walk away, I can hear him following behind me.
"I told you I'd go with you. I'm not finished with my drawing but I know you have to pee so it's okay."
"Thank you."
As I take off my shoes, socks, pants and underwear I feel the cold night air against my bare legs.
I take up a spot behind one of the concrete walls and relieve myself.
Much better.
The underwear worked as it should have, but I didn't want to take it back with me.
It was dirty after all.
So I set the article of clothing on top of the concrete wall, out of sight.
"Ha! Now people can wonder about that being there."
Yeah, that's not weird at all...
"Are you almost done with your drawing now?", I ask.
"Almost."
A few minutes go by.
"Okay, I'm done. Come look!"
I walk over to the wall and gaze upon the artwork he had presented to me.
I couldn't believe my eyes!
With black, red and blue markers he had transformed the boring, gray wall into a masterpiece.
Written there was:
Happy 10 Months
Jake
2012-N-2/26
Rachel
"It's beautiful, baby! I absolutely love it!
Thank you so much baby. You did a wonderful job!"
"I'm really glad you like it!"
We stand there and stare at it for a while before we decide to continue to walk again.
Monday, February 27, 2012
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