Birthday Girl!

Today I turn 20 years old! I am super excited for a a few reasons. I am the first female in my direct family that has not married at the age of 19! Whoo! I'm proud of myself, haha. Eventually I will also be the first of my immediate family to graduate from college, but that's another story. Today I will be spending time with a somewhat special-ish person who for whatever reason I still give a damn about. But that's all cool. He wants to get in my pants, but I don't really want that to happen. I'm afraid of what the outcome would be. He's still attached to me and says he still loves me, and it's weird. I just don't want to mess anything up, and although he believes it won't, I believe it will. But let's just see what happens. Anyway, I'll go and enjoy my day. Thank you for reading.

Birthday in 8 days.

          I will turn 20 years old in 8 days! I plan on having a small party at my house. I'm going to get drunk and that's about all I've gotten planned so far! If you're wondering about my ex, he's trying to cope being without me 24/7. As my mother had pointed out to me, he was dependent on being around me all the time, and I guess that's one of the places we messed up at. I got tired of it, while he loved it. Anywho, he's still slightly depressed, but at least we can talk to each other now like civilized people! No more yelling and bullying.
          I'm enjoying spending time with my family and friends like I used to. I'm bored a lot of the times, but I'm really happy! So all in all, it works for me.

Update 2

          So far, since he apparently wants me out of his life, my days have been going great! School is still hectic, and soon I might get a mini Netbook. Just something for now to help me along with my studies. I've recently sparked up an old friendship, and I really like this guy. It's nice to just hang out with someone with no strings attached. He listens to my problems, we chill together, and he lives just up the road from me. It takes maybe about 5-10 minutes to get to his house, depending on if the dogs don't try to chase me away. It kind of feels like a relief from all of the pain and unhappiness that the relationship had caused. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't always like that, but in the end that's what it came down to. I'm still in the midst of retrieving my things from his place, but I'm almost done. Hopefully we both will be able to move on to better things from here. Honestly, it hurt when he told me he didn't want to be friends anymore, and I don't know if he thinks I'm losing him, but I can tell you he has already lost me. If someone doesn't want to be in my life, then so be it. Just don't expect to walk back in, the locks will have already been changed. But, in losing not only a once was great boyfriend and a best friend, I have gained many other friends. One, which I have already mentioned, is becoming like a best friend. I don't completely know him, but I like what I see so far. And he is SEXY!!!