Its not happening

I can't do it. I'm not ready. I don't want anything serious. I can't deal with that kind of stress, I'm only 20 years old anyway, I have better things to do with my time then spend it trying to salvage something I really don't want. I know this seems confusing; I was confused. But now I know what I at least don't want, so now I can start working on what I do want. And what I want right now, is the freedom to choose what I want to do. So it begins.