Friday, June 26, 2015

Just some thoughts about sex

So, I've been thinking lately, and I have noticed I am really horny more than I let on to my SO. I do this because he is almost always tired, so I don't want to bother him with it.
And I've noticed my mind starts to wander into fantasy mode a lot more when I am in need of the D.
And as I was daydreaming, I started thinking about who I am sexually attracted to (and why) vs. who I am attracted to in terms of love and relationships.

Here is what I came up with:

            LUST                                                         vs                                                  LOVE

-Tall men                                                                                                       -Personality focused
-Any skin tone (recent)                                                                                  -Light skin tone
-Lots of hair                                                                                                   -No hair preference
-Tatoos                                                                                                           -No height preference

And the list might go on.
But I'll edit that in later.
So I was wondering and thinking back to my exes, why there can be such a difference.
Probably when I am horny all I think about is the body parts, but when I fantasize about other men, and yes I do, men do it too- it's called porn, I always fantasize about much taller guys among other traits. It's probably normal, but I feel like if I were wildly attracted to those men I would end up dating them. But that's only happened once, and it was the guy I lost my virginity to. Hmm... maybe that's why I fantasize about those type of guys. He was 6'1" or 6'2" at the time, he has grown since, had long hair, but no tatoos.

Oh hey, I learned something new about myself.

Monday, June 22, 2015

Reconstructed outlook?

Don't you just love these spells where I don't post anything at all for a long time, and then all of a sudden come up here with a long list of updates and shit? Well here is another one.

- My son turns one years old soon, yay us.
- I am living with my boyfriend at the moment, we are doing well at the moment.
- I recently fixed my laptop, which is why I am updating this bloggy.
- I still have no friends, but I am closer to my family that what I used to be.
- I'm making more money at my job now, it helps.
- I plan on writing more of my unfinished story. I might actually go back through it and change some things, it could be so much better.
- I have come to realization that I may be a Nymphomaniac.
- Aaand..... I have snapchat. So, add me. (This sentence has nothing to do with the previous one, by the way. So irrelevant.)

I don't know, I feel like a whole lot hasn't happened since I last posted.

i deleted what i was originally going to say because i felt like i was complaining too much. so, there's that.